Good Morning!
Well, the last of the house is packed up and removed. It was harder than I thought. I cried all the way back to mom’s .
Talked to Sir, as soon as I heard his voice I started crying again. He asked why I was crying.. I tried to fluff it off and say I wasn’t . (I don’t fluff or lie well) He didn’t take that as an answer. He calmed me down. He always does. He is calm where I am… not.
Went home and took a shower. Cried some more. Just the whole realization that everything was just OVER. That all of these hopes and dreams that I had, with that home, with so many things … over. Frustrating, AGONIZING. My mom is hovering. ugh!
Tonite they are having a somewhat bday party for me as they will all be out of town for my birthday. Sir was invited. That should be fun. 
He says that he is spending my bday with me, though he won’t tell me what the plans are. I guess this is fine I am a details person. Need to know them. Secrets drive me batty and are like torture. Even when the secrets are good.
My friends were supposed to go out and have a party with me but everyone will be out of town. One gf’s husbands bday same day. And another gf’s sisters bday same day. I have always had a birthday that coincides with something. Father’s day… social events … and even work events. hehe
i don’t mind sharing.
Thank you Georgie for the Quarante ? spelling? i like that almost as much as 30-10 french makes EVERYTHING sound better.
My friend Dougie K is a screenwriter. He has been trying to get me to date him. I keep telling him i am seeing sir. He lives in LA and was going to fly into vegas especially for my birthday. I had to tell him that I had things going on. I felt bad. He says he will fly me into Los Angeles next month. I am not sure why the sudden interest. Funny that people you like or are interested in are only interested in you when you are with someone and they KNOW you don’t do the cheat or disloyal thing.
Well it is Wednesday… I have had coffee. I am still tired but I actually slept last nite. yay!
2 days left of 39 and this fucking awful year will be over.
It hasn’t been all bad. There are bonuses throughout the year. My family loves me. I have good friends who love me. And I met Sir. I am hoping he likes me , cuz i really kinda like him, the person he is .
gotta go 2 minutes to dress AND curl my hair. UGH!
Hi sweetie.. you know.. Sylvanus knows EXACTLY how you feel and what you are going thru. He had the same. Packing up a house, leaving a life he had so many hopes for… he understands better than I do. I am so very happy that Sir is in your life and that he will be treating you for your birthday! I’m sure you will have a great time!
Hi Pet … look at the tears as being therapy and washing out whatever is left of Dick-head. It certainly sounds like your bday ia a popular one.
Enjoy your days with Sir and if He isn’t the one … there are more out there, D or not.
PS … Dougie wants to date you for the same reason I would date you … you are a beautiful and wonderful woman.
I would not look at leaving the old house as an ending..I see it as more of a beginning. Sounds like “Sir” has your best interests in mind….
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